it feels like dreaming, it was both nightmare and sweet dream.
it feels like someone just drag me out of my daydream when im not ready to face reality, and yes, someone just did and im glad he did; a friend of mine and yours too. he made me understand that all of this times, I'm just too blind to see that you're not into me.
at first i was in denial, so i said to him;
''you've never been in my shoes, you never knew how he treats me; if it's true that he doesnt love me, why he acted like we were in a relationship? and he texted me once, after the breakup, that he missed me. what does it means?''
he knows you longer than me, years versus months. he knows you inside out, and all the dirty secrets and the skeletons you hid in the closet. he knows you so well. so well, to tell you was serious with me or not.
my heart sank deeper and deeper hearing his alibis. it was all too obvious but i was blind. but that's not entirely my faults, why do you ha…
and i am not the best daughter my dad deserved and sometimes i wonder, what did he has done wrong, to have such a daughter like me.
I have caused him so much trouble, since i was his little baby till i grew up being an emo teen. I always the difficult child in the family. He said it to me once - that im his difficult child.
"Am i not enough for you?" he asked me one day.
oh what have i done.
i remembered on the night of the very last day of his life, that night before Allah take him forever, he called me.
"hello?" i heard his voice.
"hello, why did you call?" i asked as he is not the type to call me if there wasn't anything wrong.
He's not the type to talk to you over the phone for a small talk.
"nothing, how are you?" he answered.
"im good, you?'' My mind wondering what made him call me, but later did i know that was the last time i ever heard his voice.
On his last days of his life, mom was admitted to …
Ive never been in a relationship before and this one fact about me that you probably dont need to know, but i will tell you anyway;
Fact #1: i keep avoiding people who like me.
Despite fact #1, I would say im one of those girl who are easily infatuated,
i can like a guy just because of his smile, act of kindness, his intelligence or just because somebody say good things about him.
So, there is this guy, he is so kind, everyone always talks only good things about him. And then there i was, being easily infatuated, falling for him. When i have crush on someone, sometimes i can get obsessed, and out of control, in which i decided to start say hi to him on fb.
Everything was good until I find out that our feelings are mutual, i started to avoid him too. and , things got mess up when he confessed to me. i just dont know what to do, and kept avoiding him and things are not working out between us.
There are few people who know this story and questioning my decision as he is such a good…